helpless...

There are times where i could not understand anymore why these things are happening to me. I just could not understand them. I have been doing everything for them yet they were never contented.

There are times that I want to stop but I am not as bad as that. I still have compassion towards them even if I know that they don't deserve it. I don't know what to do. Will I ever be enough for them? I've done almost everything and maybe, if I was in a different situation, things might have gone better.

I longed for acceptance, for respect and I know that I can only get it from others.

I don't want to be weak yet right now, I am becoming a worst person. I need a friend, I need a family. I need someone(not a lover) to make me feel happy. I just want to be me where everyone around me can accept that fact.

I am too tired wearing this facade especially towards others. i can't lie anymore. I'm not happy..I'm miserable and I don't have anyone to depend on. I am such a lonesome individual. Many are telling me that I am friendly, that i am lucky but the truth is..I am the unluckiest girl in the world.I am full of angst, pain and sufferings...

I wanna break free... I can't take this anymore.. :((

I hope they'll change and I wanna be happy.....

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PET SOCIETY

I love my character in Pet Society, though I know that a lot of people don;t play it anymore. I'm too obsessed about it that I really have to update my pet even on a weekly basis. I love pampering "Jham",my character's name, by buying things(on the pet society's store) that are always new and updating her stuff.

Pet Society has been my "saving grace" for a boring,monotonous summer vacation. I am very much aware that I have to do a lot of stuff by the time that the semester would start yet I have to deal and experience the "extremities" of BOREDOM.

Well..take a glimpse of my pet.. JHAM:

Pyramid- Charice feat Iyaz Official Music Video

wow..I'm so proud of Charice. For the win GIRL!!

Justin Bieber is my boyfriend!

I know that it may sound like a heck of a lie..but he is..at least on my dreams. Yes.

I didn't like Justin Bieber by the time that he started to become famous because I think that he is trying to copy Aaron Carter(and I am a die-hard AC fan) but later on, I came to realized that this guy really has the potential to become a teen sensation( and he is, as of the moment). His music is really good and I am very much in love with his BABY song that features Ludacris. He is really cute and the video was really good.

I think he has the charm that could melt the teens' hearts yet I still don't want to have a crush on him because he doesn't look like a sixteen-year-old-boy for me, he may seems like a 12 year old(maybe by his looks) and I am already 20. And then one day, I had this weird dream about Justin Bieber being a serial killer and later something had happened on the dream(on the plot) that made him my boyfriend.Whoa. I was like "Justin Bieber is my boyfriend but he is a killer."

Well, I could actually remember the entire dream except of the JB part and that made me laugh and it is very weird. Maybe if I have that "thing" on him, I could actually think that it's okay for me if he is a killer as long as he could be my bf.LOL.

ahhaha

To be honest,I would want to dream about him again but I wanted a "grown-up" JB there, hahahha

PS: I'm really bad at editing..lmao

I want to go against my detractors

I keep on telling myself that I can take it and that they will change as time goes by but it seems that I have to give it up and start to do things on my own. I never imagined myself to be in this kind of situation especially that I have been trying my very best to be happy as well as to make other people happy. I have always been so generous that I am always reaching my helping hands to others. I really don't deserve the kind of treatment that I am receiving from other people especially that I have been so kind and loving towards these people and all I really wanted is for them to value my efforts and respect me as I am. I cannot please everybody but I am doing my very best to be happy and act by not hurting anybody.

I'm so full of drama right now and I am not happy about it. I keep on asking myself why do these things are happening to me. I'm not just happy anymore. I'm so tired of flashing those smiles that I know that deep within are not real.

I wanna do something about this for myself because I just don't want these people to continue on destroying my life.I will do soemthing for it!!!